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Life is complicated..

Journal Entry: Fri Sep 25, 2015, 9:38 PM
I'm going to be up front and honest to say the one reason why it's been so difficult for me to focus on art in the past 6 years years is because I've been trying to overcome a personal struggle to accept myself as a LGBT individual. This is personal, but it's a truth that needs to be said.

I studied to be a fantasy illustrator for 3 years from 2009-2011 but stopped my artistic endeavors to figure out myself and my identity. It hasn't been easy as accepting myself has been the most difficult challenge I've ever faced in my life. The majority of people in society sees people like me as..well, LESS than most people.

But even than I'm grateful for all the experiences I've had, even the unpleasant ones, because now I feel unstoppable.

My goal now is to complete 4 new illustrations in the next 2 weeks and to start on working on commissions by the end of this year. 

For all of you reading this - thank you very much for taking the time to read this humble journal entry. For my followers - thank you for continued support. It is my hope that the next few months will make up for all the inactivity that has plagued this account for awhile. 

Slow process..

Journal Entry: Sun Mar 22, 2015, 1:21 PM
Sorry for the inactivity guys! I've been practicing doing life studies to touch up my skills but the good news is that it's working because this image is finally progressing somewhere...

WIP: Eruri by Elysian-Fall

Here's the main illustration I've been working on from time to time. Eruri yaoi of these two having a moment with the sunset breaking through the clouds =D :heart: Drawing real life clouds before painting the ones in the pic definitely helps as do photo references.

Gonna try to finish this one in the next week. Wish me luck!  

Updates and tumblr

Journal Entry: Sat Mar 7, 2015, 10:45 AM
This past month I've been working on touching-up my skills. I seriously can't believe I stopped doing art for two years! I've been running into problems with my work so I've decided to go back to step 1 and work on the fundamentals. 

Darnit I just want to be good at art and make pretty pics and yaoi! Lol..

I guess in the end, there's no other choice other than to enjoy the process..

Also - I now have a tumblr blog!…

Hello 2015!!

Journal Entry: Wed Feb 11, 2015, 8:42 PM
Hey everyone! Again, so sorry I haven't been active much on DA. So far 2015 has been off to a great start for me; hope this year's also been treating you all good as well!  

I never thought I'd say this but does it seem like drawing fanart is more enjoyable than originals. For some reason whenever I draw originals I become a super-perfectionist but with fanart I can let loose and enjoy.

Anyway I hope you guys like Attack on Titan because there's a whole load of fanart on it's way! :D

I'm not dead yet..

I spent the last couple years figuring out what I want to do for a career and I've came to the conclusion that being an artist is the life for me.

So, there will be a lot more new drawings and paintings coming along =D 

Sometimes it takes years to figure out want you want out of life, but I'm grateful that I've figured it out!

MOdeling Page..

Journal Entry: Sat Nov 24, 2012, 6:44 PM

Hey guys! I started another account for my modeling career: . Check it out!

I'm still making art these days. it's just been going slow. Picked up lots of hobbies. Been happy, life is good!

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Trying something new..

Journal Entry: Sun Apr 1, 2012, 3:11 AM

I'm curious of who actually reads my journals..

So, just to find out, anyone who comments below may actually get a gift art from me! I'll select anyone at random and send them a note about ideas and such. Since I'm very busy, expect a one-month waiting time before your gift is finished.

You also need to be one of my watchers. I'm seeing this an opportunity to thank the people who have been keeping track of my art and urging me to keep making more :)

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Journal Entry: Sun Jan 8, 2012, 5:49 AM

:iconanothergoth: tagged me!

Rules: 1. You MUST post these rules.
2. Each person MUST post 11 things about themselves in their journal.
3. Answer the questions the "tagger" set for you in their post, and create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.
4. You HAVE to choose 11 people to tag AND post their icons on your journal.
5. GO to his/her page AND tell that person you tagged him/her.
6. NO tag backs.
7. NO stuff like "you are tagged if you read this".
8. you HAVE to ask 11 people. NO LESS THAN 11!

1.How does one eat food?
Uh, in my mouth? =P

2.Can you spell the word mississipi with out any i's?
I spell it with 'i's..I think..

3. coffee break.
No thanks! Can I have yerba mate instead? (or red bull?)

4.What is you bad habit?
I worry myself to death if I don't practice enough art! Need to chill out more.

5.Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
No, but I wish I can.

6.How ya feeling today?
Pretty freaking good, actually =P

7.Does this tag annoy you?
Just a little, but I'm doing it anyway for kicks.

8.Can you say Irish Wrist Watch 3 times? How about once?
Bah, thats child's play!

9.Do these rules seem impossible to follow?
Well I'm doing it, ain't I?

10.What origins are you? (i.e. German, African, Guatamalan, etc.)
Half filipino and german/italian.

11. Free space! Gimme a fun emoticon and how to do it!

Now for my questions:
1. Coffee or tea?
2. Bat wings or angel wings?
3. Would you rather be rich with problems, or poor but carefree?
4. What kind of weather do you like?
5. If you could live the rest of your life in one age, what would you pick?
6. What do you think of this journal skin?
7. City or country?
8. Favorite movie?
9. Liberal or conservative?
10. How tall are you?
11. Now lastly, and honestly, what do you think about these questions? =P

1. :iconakult:
2. :iconvoltaira:
3. :iconkregl:
4. :iconmirz123:
5. :iconholle:
6. :iconnextgrandcross:
7. :iconottergirl:
8. :iconaurorawienhold:
9. :iconeddsworld:
10. :iconmahitred:
11. :iconsara-a2:

(For those who are annoyed by being tagged, forgive me...but I need to kill some time. )

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Journal Entry: Sat Oct 29, 2011, 11:31 PM

Feels weird to be back here on deviantart. I barely reconize most of the pictures in my gallery because I have improved by a lot. So much for my last New Years resolution (what was it, to post something here once a month?).

For the past few months, I've been sorting through personal problems and just moved to a new apartment. Now I hope I can focus all my time and energy to art!

Thank you to all my watchers! I have (or had) some DA friends here, sorry to abandon you guys. I have a lot of deviations to sort through, but I'll get to you guys soon enough.

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Take that, Photoshop!

Journal Entry: Tue Jan 4, 2011, 12:08 AM

I started painting a dragon in Photoshop on New Years, which is cool because my resolution this year was to learn digital art!

For years I dreaded Photoshop for some odd reason. There is something about using a Wacom tablet that was terrifying. Whatever it is, at least I got over it.

Can't wait to see what the next year will bring! Hope you all had a good one! =D

Oh and here's the painting, for the obsessively curious..

        First Photoshop painting.. by Elysian-Fall

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  • Listening to: Sybreed - Neurodrive
  • Reading: A Clash of Kings
  • Watching: Red Sonja
  • Playing: Advance Wars: Duel Strike

Thanks and Happy Holidays!

Journal Entry: Sat Dec 25, 2010, 9:31 PM

I just wanted to thank everyone who has watched, comment, or faved my art here. I'm very grateful to be back here on DA. It's hard to believe this account had been in existance for seven years! I've improved by a TON since then and I have to thank you all for encouraging me to never give up!

Even though I've been drawing for a long time, I didn't take art seriously until just last Febuary. My goal for the next year to upload at least 10 deviations. It sounds easy but it's extremely tough for me to do because of so much art school and a full time job....I'll manage somehow.

The holidays have never been my kind of thing. In fact I used to hate them because it was impossible to forget Christmas because the obession over it got annoying after awhile. I don't mind anymore, simply because its a nice change of pace from work and people in general are much less grouchy.

So here it is - Happy Holidays everybody! =D

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  • Reading: A Clash of Kings
  • Watching: Tron
  • Playing: Heroes of Might and Magic II

Drawings are taking foreevvverrr!

Thu Nov 11, 2010, 4:45 PM

:skull:Click here for commission information! :skull:

Yes, I've been working on a drawing but I just keep getting too distracted to finish it! Damn video games and a full time job!!! The job is a killer because I work so much and along with art classes it makes me be lazy whenever I get free time. Oh, video games are evil too. Even worse is the guilt that comes with it because you know you're wasting time whenever you play.

Well, at least I'm not playing an MMO..

  • Reading: A Clash of Kings
  • Playing: Disiples II
  • Drinking: Yerba Mate

I'm not dead yet!

Sun Aug 8, 2010, 11:08 PM

:skull:Click here for commission information! :skull:

Hey guys!

I just wanted to let you know all that I'm still here - I've just been super busy juggling art school and work. I've been doing a lot of realism studies and started to try my hand at writing. It's all fun but usually I make myself feel guilty for not working on the fantasy art whose purpose to be posted onto this account. Thats why I haven't logged on recently, I refuse to do it unless I got something to upload!

When the times comes around that I finish another fantasy/character piece, I'll be sure to go back and look at/comment to all my favorite artists and friends (you know who you are!).

In the meantime I really ought to try finishing some drawings. It feels like I'm doing too much (realism studies, writing, sketching) of everything and I'm just not finishing any of my work. Urgh, don't you hate that?

Anyway, you all have a good night! :)

  • Drinking: Yerba Mate

Commission Info

Sun Jul 4, 2010, 12:43 PM

Hey guys, I'm going to start drawing commissions from now on. Help a starving artist!

:skull:B&W toned character drawing: $25 (
:skull:Intense toned character drawing: $40 (…)

:skull:Colored work: Not yet available

Send me a note if interested!

Getting a little paranoid..

Tue Jun 29, 2010, 8:58 PM

I know this sounds weird but yesterday marks the first time in my life that I ever liked my artwork! My newest (DreamWeaver) is a drawing that means a lot to me and now I'm getting paranoid about people stealing it. Should I watermark my work? Should I do it right immediately? I ought to do it but I'm really picky about how the watermark should look (which means I'll spent like an hour doing it) and I really don't want to bother with that right now.

  • Listening to: Theatre Of Tragedy - Cassandra
  • Reading: Return of the King
Hey guys!

So I've been dead on DA for like over four years! I had quite a lot of problems back then and was stuck an at artblock for awhile. Oh well, it happens...

Now I'm back and it feels great to be drawing again! I'm taking classes at an atelier art school which is really helpful.

Anyway, I don't have much else to say O_O;; I hope you guys like the artwork! :D
  • Listening to: If I Could Fly - Helloween
  • Reading: Blood of Elves
  • Playing: Earthbound